I don't know whether it was my setting of 2016 goals and the BOOM that comes with New Year but lately I have definitely been putting a lot of unnecessary pressure on myself. Don't get me wrong, I work quite well under pressure through fear of failure. It makes me more diligent and more organised - way more practical. However, another thing it does is stunt my creativity. How annoying - seen as everything I do, from my actual job, to my blog, to my hobbies, centres around creativity.
I feel like where I've vowed to be more consistent with blogging as a goal this year, I really pressured myself to do it as if it's my job, when really it's my hobby, something that I should enjoy doing. You know that thing when you have so much to do that you can't do anything? Yeah, I had that. Having such stressful deadlines at work to get copy turned over meant that the last thing I wanted to do was come home and do more writing. In fact not only did I not want to, I physically couldn't. My brain was frozen.
This has been my consistent struggle
-I need to blog
-I REALLY need to blog
-I have nothing to blog about
-Ah, I can blog about that thing
-*sits down to blog. Stares at blank document*
-*closes document. Watches Netflix*
I really just needed a second to breathe, remind myself that I wasn't letting anyone down and have sometime to actually just be. This little dry spell has actually been a good thing in a way, because it confirmed my suspicions, I can’t fake enthusiasm. At school I always excelled in the subjects I loved and scraped grades with subjects I hated because when I’m not enthusiastic about something I find it hard to truly give my all to it.
I’m hoping that because I actually wanted to sit down and write this, that it means that my creative dry spell is officially over (fingers and toes crossed please) so stay tuned. I do really think I'll get back into the swing of things, so bear with me, It'll be worth it!
Love Keeks xo
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